Being distracted at the vey end.. (O.O)

been dreaming baout something for so long, its feel like u can reach it,
its just one step closer, but somehow everything seem so blur.
something new came to u distract everything u've been planed
it offer u a better things,
yup, thats what happen to me right now...
i never imagine that this would be so deficult..
"UNIVERSITY"  this word means alot, for a 17 yo girl like me get into college is something thats realy cool, meeting a new friend getting what u wanted, being independent, far from home, thats all challanging.
that is the exited things of being college student,, but i never thought that this would be so much confusing.
1st  we have to apply to collage going trough some enterance test
when u've done with it, it doesnt mean that u immediately being a a student in thats univ.
its realy frustating when u found that ur name was not on the list ,
then  i tried the second time when its planed very well .
something happened i was accepted in the univ that im not wantedbefore,
 but its offer me a good things,
its also offer me  good future.
WHAT IS GOING ON WIHT MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.............????
so it feel like being in the part of the movie, wnen a girl  geting married  with her boyfriend and sudenly her ex come or someone thats totaly like her ideal type come and ask her to runaway :(
so maybe its how it feel being distracted at the very end
just wishing GOD would give me what the best for me...
we'll see..